TAPI Fam Dinner BBQ & back time stories.

Is been a long time we didn’t see among us. Is 9 of us and currently we are studying and also working, like Fazri a pilot. Yeah kami sgt seronok dpt jumpa balik bersama and w talked so much (maybe aku jer kot). Banyak cerita yg dikongsi termasuklah flash back in school time. Sekolah rendah punya cerita pun keluar. And our main topic is all about FAZRI! Yeah Fazri who else. huhu Fazri came to my life when I was in standard 4. My friends Khair was introduced me to him. And since of that, we were being a best friends untill now. Setiap petang lepas sekolah agama abes, dtg rumah ajak main basikal. Ronda-ronda satu section 18 dengan dia, yg dulunya aku x penah buat pun sebab xder geng, So dah ada Fazri, semua ceruk kt 18 aku masuk. haha.. And Fazri being our main topic to talk because his ancient confident in what ever he did, termasuklah lempang org sebab patah-patahkan pemdam dia kt sekolah renda dulu and “kuaci sedap-kuaci sedap’ xkan aku lupakan weyh! hahaha kau memang legend! Ok itu pasal Fazri. Bila masuk sekolah menengah, aku berpeluang kenal Syafinaz or Pnut. Pnut yang kadang-kadang blurrr and sometimes nk masuk jugak dgn cerita orang lain. Selalu jadi mangsa untuk dilempar masuk dalam pool kt rumah Maizan. hahaha Sapa suruh lari theme pakai kaler lain. Heh. Dan yang lain tu macam, Mya(Engineering UiTM), Memon(Nk practical), Maizan(dah abes study in ID), Cakira(kt USM), Appa(tgh bahagia rasanya huhu) Fazri(Pilot), Ika(dah abes study jgk), Pnut(Degree at UKM) and last sekali aku, final sem for diploma in masscomm. Tak sabar nk abes kt Lendu cepat then sambung kt Shah Alam. And I were really really hope that I can get a good result for this semester. I had done everything with my best effort. Hope it’s worth on what I’m doing. Insyaallah. If ada rezeki aku bersyukur sgt. Alrite think enough for this post, will update later as is been long time I didn’t open my Tumblr. caww~ =)

About me now.

Hye, it's been a very long long long time i didn't update my blog. Yeah i don't think people will interest to read my blog. To those who following me here. Tq so much babe! I will try to update my blog as much as i can. Well it's depends on the situation and my story too. So as for your information, i'm in part 5 now as diploma student in masscomm. Yeah it's a quite tough semester though i'm struggle n gambling to finish up all the assignments, activities, komed things, conflict, love and so on. And as the end of the semester, I just hope i will get a better result not like before. Yeah i'm not smart enough as other students by i put my effort to get a better grade for my result. Being around with other people gave u a various perception towards them. For a example, friends that you know from first semester who always together with you, you get closed with them like one family or siblings, and finally you will end up with quarreling. As a first met, every body shown a good attitude, mulut manis, tolong menolong, and bla bla bla with their plastic face. Bullshit! And after know the true colour of them, tk de maknanya tu semua! All the shit things that happened to me, like they do something behind your back like you are hopping you want to do it too. Bullshit! Mcm aku hadap sgt je. Ada aku kesah? I hate people actinglike that. People who lied to me. People who think they good enough and everything. World is full with plastic people at their face. Even thicker than a plastic. One of my friend said ' In this world, there are only two kind of people...Good people who does good things..And bad who does bad things..That's the only difference between human...'. As for me that sentence doesn't appropriate to use it now because sometimes good people also do a bad things too. Right? So from now on, i decided to not get close with any other person there. Just a friends for assignments and works. It's better like that rather than you have a friends, but mengutuk behind your back, they and said something not true about you. K till we meet again. Adios amigos~

Hurt

Seems like it was yesterday when I saw your face
You told me how proud you were, but I walked away
If only I knew what I know today, ooh, ooh

I would hold you in my arms, I would take the pain away
Thank you for all you've done, forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do to hear your voice again
Sometimes I wanna call you but I know you won't be there

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself by hurting you

Some days I feel broke inside but I won't admit
Sometimes I just wanna hide 'cause it's you I miss
And it's so hard to say goodbye when it comes to this, ooh

Would you tell me I was wrong? Would you help me understand?
Are you looking down upon me? Are you proud of who I am?
There's nothing I wouldn't do to have just one more chance
To look into your eyes and see you looking back

Oh, I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself, oh

If I had just one more day
I would tell you how much that I've missed you
Since you've been away

Oh, it's dangerous
It's so out of line
To try and turn back time

I'm sorry for blaming you
For everything I just couldn't do
And I've hurt myself
By hurting you

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Alhamdulillah and thanks to Allah because bring my parents and Mama (aunts) back home with safe and sound. Glad, happy and very excited when seeing them at KLIA yesterday with a smile on their face, even though Mak looks skinny than before. Is like they go for their Hajji with bless from Allah. Inside the car when on the way back to grandma house, we talked a lot. Especially Mak, macam2 nk disembangkan. Yeah this is her first time going to Makkah even ayah too. So inside the car, macam2 Mak story to me how's she got difficult to eat and everything. Mak and ayah pulak kat sane tiba2 demam, batok plus selsema until now. May be because of perubahan cuaca kot... So yesterday we arrived at home around 230am. And now mak and ayah is get busy with their self to unpacked all the stuff and had to entertain all the jiran2 and tetamu yang datang. huhu dah macam artis pulak dorang nih. And for this recent time, please don't come to my house. Because the condition looks like 'stor simpanan barang' or 'tempat meniaga' sebab penuh dengan makan2 junk food and baju2 yg they beli kt sana. haha sepah weyh! Macam2 mak beli and spending about _ _ _ _k! (can't mention). huhu dan nasib baik she's got somenthing to me. Tu yang penting! hahaha.... But I don't expect anything from them. Tapi dah dia belikan, so just take it lah! heee.... And now, mak and ayah masih lagi berkemas barang dia dan tetamu masih lagi datang. Biarlah, hot story from Makkah, Madinah and lain2 blm abes lg kot! huhu...

Anyway, i decided not to play any other social networking services for some period times. Maybe a day, a week, a month or maybe for ever! I'm so sorry to all my friends there. I just don't like a mean person, harsh word, or annoying people. I'm sorry again because I'm not a kind of people who can accept a harsh word. I have my feelings. Please don't under estimate me or and judging me without knowing who I am. So far, I'm not in the mood to open things like Facebook, Myspace, Twitter, Friendster or else. Tq.

No One Knows.

Hey, I'm here to speak about myself. How do i say this. Nobody knows is hard to stay alone without our parents. Ok, my parents are know doing their Hajji for 44 days and will come back home this Sunday. But what i'm trying to say is, when they are not around, i prefer to stay alone. siblings or relatives? sometimes you will be more comfortable to stay at your own house rather than staying at their house. kawan2? kadang2 dorang pn perlu luangkan masa utk diri dorang jgk and you can't stay with one person in a long period time plus lots of money you will spent together with them for a things like foods, entertainment and etc. so sometime i was thinking it's better to stay alone daripada ajak kwn2 dtg lepak rumah. duit boleh jmat babe. Stay alone? frankly speaking, it's ok if only for 3 to 4 days. but not for one weeks. you will go crazy dude! bosan, tapayah ckp la... watching tv, internet is ok la for 3 to 4 days, but not for the whole week. so sbb tu kdg2 aku hilang mood. nk kuar mestilah kena keluar duit. duit pulak mmg tk banyak.

Apa yang paling terasa bila duduk rumah tanpa mak dan ayah is, no one is gona cook for you, wash your laundry, prepare your stuff, bagi duit belanja and so on. Terasa sangat2. Everyday I will waiting for them to calls tp bkn tiap2 hari they call. Bila dpt dgr suara sgt teharu dan rindu tapi ayat rindu tu tk terungkap sebab malu nk luahkan. Cukuplah dapat dengar suara. Orang senang nasihat sabar..sabar... the word 'sabar' tu sampai tk larat nk dengar. is easy for them to said or maybe because they didn't feel it and not trying to put their self in my situation. yelah buat apa pulak dorang nk tau how is my feeling. ermm bila dengar orang kate tengah tunggu mak masak.nak makan jap. hurhh at that time sangat2 sentap dan sedih sebab tk dpt rase macam tu at the moment. but alhamdulillah i still can sabar walaupun kadang2 sabar ni menyakitkan hati.

So in a simple word, it's hard and really2 hard to stay alone...faktor kewangan sangat terhad. sampai penah sekali tinggal rm2 je dlm wallet n tergamam sekejap bila pikir esok nk makan apae. tp aku bersyukur sebab ada kakak aku, at least boleh tolong dan ambil berat pasal aku.yelah aku adik dia. And now i just hoping that my parents will come back home safely and i really miss them. so no more word 'sabar' anymore because of waiting for them.

I love my Nokia E71 as much I love you! huhu

Ayah

Emak

Miss You! :x